Eliza Bennett - My Declaration

I'm gonna be someone, I'm gonna give something,

I'm taking it on, I'm taking it on,It's gonna be my life, so I'm gonna live each day and each night,Taking it on, I'm taking it on

'cause I can't keep hiding, no I can't keep hiding, and I can't keep running away

So I'm gonna be stronger, I'm gonna be better made, I'm gonna give everything,Just to bring me back again.

I'm gonna be a braver soul than this,

I'm gonna jump at all those many chances that i've missed,I'm gonna live my life beyond all these fears and forms of cowardice that keep leading me on.

I'm gonna shine out like a beacon in the night,

I'm gonna wrap my fingers around the stars tonight,

'cause i'm taking it on, 'cause i'm taking it on...

No I can't keep hiding, no I can't keep hiding, no I can't keep running away

So I'm gonna be stronger, and I'm gonna be better made, and I'm gonna give everything,

Just to bring me back again.

So I'm gonna be stronger, I'm gonna be understood, and I'm gonna give everything

Just to bring me back again!

'cause I can't keep hiding, no I can't keep hiding, and I can't keep running away.

未来，真的越来越模糊

我毕业了，熬了四年终于毕业了，高兴了一阵子，现在，又在为将来而烦了。在吉隆坡住了四年多了，还真的有点舍不得这里的都市生活，这里的消闲地方，购物商场是家乡没有的。大城市，人来人往，高楼临立，人人都在为生活而忙。曾经思考过，这样的生活是我要的吗？后来我明白了，不管你要不要，生活就是如此，就是如此残酷，你不得不接受。

昨天acca成绩放榜了，果然不出我所料，全军覆没。从七月毕业到现在已经有一个多月了，面试了几份工，我还是失业呆在家，整天无所事事。忽然间，有种好失落的感觉直涌我心上。忽然间，我好想放下这一切，回到我最初的那个地方-家乡，找回当初的那个我。也许我真的不适合做游子，应该回去自己的家乡，安份的找一份工，管他薪水低什么的。

也许这是最好的计划吧，回家乡先找一份相关的工作，拿点经验，拿到acca过后再去新加坡发展吧。吉隆坡，也许真的不适合我吧，对我来说，最不舍的应该是我认识了几年的那些朋友吧。可是，世上没有不散的宴席。人生，就如一场游戏，终究要曲终人散。